Being with Georgette #20

Being with Georgette #20

“This must have been the kind of place they sent you,” Georgette said.

The low, whitewashed building in a park-like setting sprawled across the grounds like it would melt into the lake behind it in no fewer than ten thousand years.

“I was never sent anywhere,” I said.

I pulled open the heavy oak door and Georgette stepped in. She skipped across the threshold and mussed my hair and said, “I hope they don’t keep you.”

The lobby was warm with a stale smell, a cross between institutional coffee and day-old thrift store.

“I’m here to see my Uncle Nate,” Georgette told the girl in white behind the counter, and she gave her name.

The girl looked at me. Georgette said, “He’s just my ride.”

“Have a seat, someone will come and get you.”

Five minutes later, someone came and got her.

“Don’t let them keep you,” Georgette said, and she followed the orderly down the hallway.

The girl looked at me a little too earnestly, and I went outside.

* * *

The lake was calm. I sat for an hour under a tree by the creek at the outlet of the lake. I studied the transition from still water to rapidly running water and tried to find the very spot where you could say this is lake and this is creek.

“It’s laminar flow,” a voice said.

I looked up at the woman. She was watching the water too. She smiled at me. She pointed to the same place I had been looking at and said, “Where the water flows smoothly, like one body, no turbulence. That’s laminar flow. Peaceful.”

I saw what she meant. “Yes,” I said.

“Mind if I sit?”

I shifted to my end of the bench, but she remained standing.

“Are you from here?”

“No.”

“You look familiar.”

“My friend is visiting her uncle.”

She sat at the other end of the bench. “I’m Doctor Stacey.”

I told her my name. She studied my face as though trying to place where she had seen me before, then she gave up.

“I study English lit,” I said.

“At the university in town?”

I nodded. A twig on the lake slowly drifted toward the outlet of the lake. It took its time but finally hit the point where the water accelerated, which Dr. Stacey had called laminar flow, and shot off down the creek.

“I studied there too,” she said. “Not that long ago.”

“And now you’re here?”

It was her turn to nod, and then she said, “I’ve moved up in the world. How long are you here?”

“I’ll be going soon.”

She looked at her watch then put her arm on the back of the bench, turning slightly toward me. “You’ve been here before.”

“I’ve visited a few times with my friend.”

“Maybe I’ve seen you another place I’ve worked at?”

“The university maybe.”

“Am I familiar to you?”

“Depends what you mean by familiar.”

“You mean I’m being familiar. Pretty sharp.”

I watched the clouds flow across the sun, across the sky, roiling as they scudded along.

“That’s turbulent flow,” Dr. Stacey said.

The sun dimmed and a slight breeze rose goosebumps on my arm.

“Shivers,” she said. “Come up to my office. That’s it, second floor, third from the end.

“My friend will be finished soon. You have a nice view of the lake from up there.”

“Seniority,” she said. “I haven’t worked here very long, but neither has anyone else.”

* * *

I stood and took one last look at the creek flowing from the lake.

She followed me around to the front of the building to the portico at the main entrance.

“Don’t walk so fast, I can’t keep up. Why are you in such a hurry?”

“My friend is waiting.”

But Georgette was not in the lobby.

The girl behind the counter looked and me and then at Dr. Stacey. She picked up the phone and said, “Orderly.”

Two orderlies appeared from the hallway and rushed toward me, but they did not stop. They stepped behind me and said, “Dr. Stacey, it’s time you went back to your office.”

With a half smile she gave a faint wave and went up the stairs with the orderlies following close behind.

“She’s a doctor?” I asked the girl.

“She was a graduate student in physics. She thinks she’s at Princeton.”

Georgette appeared and the girl went back to shuffling papers.

“Am I interrupting something?” she asked, her eyes sparkling.

“How’s Uncle Nate?”

She giggled and took me by the arm and pulled me outside.

“You always seem too at home when you bring me here. These are your kind of people.”

“You are my kind of people.”

I helped her into my truck. She gave me a peck on the cheek and said, “Don’t ever go away again.”

I shrugged and said, “I just go with the flow, you know that.”

As I drove through the parking lot, I glanced in the rearview mirror and saw myself standing next to the bench by the creek, my hand frozen in a faint wave.

I punched the gas and pulled the truck out of the parking lot and back into the turbulent flow of Georgette’s happy life.

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Being with Georgette #19

Being with Georgette #19

I walked along the road to the gap between the guardrail and the old bridge, the two-tone truss bridge a mile from my house.

The dirt trail led down the steep slope between the boulders to the river. The boulders had been blasted from a quarry on the other side of town to shore up the road on the approach to the bridge. A few boulders rose to my waist, and I patted one and, feeling its radiant warmth in the afternoon sun, I embraced it.

Georgette had stopped me on my way out the door and said she wanted a divorce. I could barely contain my glee, and all I could say was could we talk about it after my walk. She had said of course.

Three quick leaps through clouds of clicking grasshoppers brought me to the sandy beach at the water’s edge. The river flowed briskly for August, following three days of rain that had washed out Georgette’s camping trip with the girls over the weekend.

I stepped into the river and stood still until the minnows gathered around my feet.

The county line ran down the center of the river, accounting for the bridge being painted two different colors: green on the Morrow County side and maroon on the Park County side. The road was a state highway but the state contracted the maintenance to the county shops, and each shop used whatever paint they had on hand for last summer’s paint job.

“Catch anything?” an old man asked from his drift boat.

I shrugged and held out my empty palms. “Not a thing.”

A boy popped his head over the gunwale of the boat and lifted a stringer full of fish. “Put that down,” the grandfather said, and they drifted down around the bend.

I entered a grove of quaking aspen and lay down in the dry, summer grass and fell asleep.

* * *

When I awoke, nothing had changed. The trees were the same, the bridge was the same, and despite what you might have heard, the river was the same. Even the sun was the same.

Only ten minutes had passed, but I had slept deeply enough to have gone to the other side of the universe and back. I can always tell how well I’ve written in the morning by how well I sleep on my afternoon walk to the river. I had written well.

The only time Georgette joined me on my afternoon walk, we napped in this aspen grove and woke to see a bobcat drinking on the other side of the river. We watched it drink and admire itself in the surface of the water and finally wander off into the brush. Ever since, Georgette asks me when I return from my walk if I saw the bobcat, and I never have. I likely never will.

A couple of loud, lifted pickup trucks with patriotic flags flapping from their beds chased each other across the bridge. I thought about my novel that begins with a man trying to end it all by jumping off this same bridge. Each time he jumps, he wakes up on the beach downstream, and after three or four tries, he gives up and goes off on adventures of a kind of Shakespearean comedy where everyone gets what they deserve in the end.

I stepped into the river again, and found that not only was it the same river, it was the same step. The same minnows. The same me.

* * *

Back through the clouds of clicking grasshoppers, and through the field of boulders. This time when I caressed one, I felt nothing but the texture of the rock. I had become as warm as the sun.

Up the dirt trail and through the gap between the guardrail and the old bridge, the two-tone truss bridge a mile from my house.

* * *

Georgette was in her garden. She stood and said, “I’ve decided to divorce him.”

“I never liked him anyway.”

She stared with that look of yeah, you never do. She said, “I’m leaving in the morning. I’ll be back, but I don’t know how long it will take. He has a lot of property.”

I looked around at her flourishing garden.

She said, “Get Esther to help. Or just let it go.”

I nodded, already letting it go.

She went back to weeding between the potatoes, and I went to the house. As I opened the door I heard, “Did you see the bobcat?” I stepped inside, pretending not to hear, and let the door close behind me.

As I prepared dinner, I realized that despite her predictability in some things, the truth was you never love the same Georgette twice.

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What is the purpose of irony and how does irony relate to meaning–to meaninglessness? Explore the key features of your existence in this series of poems that begins with the simplest statement, things exist, and end with the definition of the absolute.

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    I

Things exist.
Things do things.

 There are things that do things.
 There are things that things do.

The first thing that things that do do is exist.
The things that things do don’t exist, they happen.

 Some things exist.
 Some things happen.

To exist is a thing that things that do do.
A thing that exists happens.

     * * *

You exist.
You do things.

 You are a thing that does things.
 There are things that you do.

The first thing that you do is exist.
The things that you do happen.

 You are a thing that exists.
 Existing is a thing that you do.

A thing that exists happens.
You happen.

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Poem 10

Poem 10

I question everything.
I question myself and why I must question everything.
  So I am silent.

I become hungry. So I eat without question.
I become tired. So I sleep without question.
I become lonely. So I love and I hate without question–
  Without silence.

Why?

                                    -Rick Mallery

I wrote this poem November 17, 2011 as a summary of my philosophy. I’ve tried to expand on it since but continue to find that saying more says less.

Being with Georgette #9

Being with Georgette #9

Georgette said, “Look, the moon.”

The full moon reflected off the wide, lazy bend in the river out on the flats south of town. The lone remaining span of the old steel bridge cast the shadow of its trusses into the flow of brilliant moonlight.

I drove to the end of the new concrete highway bridge and pulled the truck onto the wide shoulder at the bridge head. The fishing access parking lot below teemed with trucks and headlights and men milling around.

“What’s everyone doing here?” Georgette asked.

“Fishing season opens at sunrise.”

“Let’s get up the hill before the moon moves.”

***

The moon had moved by the time we reached the gazebo at the top of the hill, but it had moved to a more advantageous view from that vantage point. It flooded the river with light.

Georgette sat at a picnic table and said, “When is sunrise?”

“I don’t know. Soon.”

“Can you make a fire?”

“No.”

***

Our third-grade teacher, Mr. Turner, had jumped from the old steel bridge on St. Patrick’s Day. Steel bridges and leprechauns always remind me of the Mr. Turner and the old battle axe who took his place the rest of that school year.

Georgette snored. Her head was in her arms crossed on the picnic table.

I shook her and said, “Let’s get you home. You have school in a few hours.”

She stood and looked at me, then she looked at the moon and then back at me. “I don’t like what that place did to you.”

“There was no place.”

“You’ve been gone almost a year.”

“I went to my own place.”

“And you didn’t write me.”

“No, I didn’t.”

“I wrote to you every day, but I didn’t know where to send the letters.”

“I’d like to read them.”

“I burned them on our birthday.”

***

We crossed the fishing access parking lot, now lit by the growing pink light of dawn. Fishermen stood on the river bank waiting for the sun to peek over the mountains.

“There’s one already fishing,” Georgette said.

“The game warden gets a head start.”

***

Georgette climbed into the truck and gave me a clumsy kiss as I held her door.

“What’s that for?”

“No one else would have gotten up so early to pick me up.

“Your parents would have.”

“But then they’d know where I was all night.”

“They’ll know anyway.”

“I’ll tell them I was with you.”

***

When we rounded the bend in the highway near the garden center, the silhouette of the mountain range loomed before us.

Georgette let out a barely audible gasp when the first rays of the sun broke over the crest of the mountains.

She said, “It’s like the signal of a fresh start, a new beginning.”

I hesitated a moment too long before saying, “And it happens every day.”

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Originally published May 9, 2021

Being with Georgette #17

Being with Georgette #17

The wedge of darkness framed by the cream-colored door jamb and cream-colored door meant nothing to me for many years–other than indicating the passage to the basement below.

Then yesterday Georgette asked me to take the basket of jarred pickles to the basement.

***

The light bulbs flickered when I switched them on, and then at once they went dark with a pop.

I descended the steep steps clasping the basket of warm pickle jars to my chest, slowly doubting the wisdom of storing the spare light bulbs in the basement.

Without incident I found the workbench and next to it the shelves lined with jarred pickles. Georgette wouldn’t let a summer pass without putting up a dozen jars of pickles, but why she never eats them is beyond me.

The light bulbs had disappeared. Or been moved. So too had the spare flashlight.

My eyes had adjusted enough to the darkness that, aided by the slim light from above, I could put the jars on this year’s shelf and take a jar from last year to the basement couch. And there, crunching on last year’s pickles, I remembered another dark basement, another slim light from above, and another voice joining Georgette’s in the kitchen.

***

Georgette said, “Because he’s cracked, that’s why.”

Georgette’s mother said, “He’s been like that since the two of you were born.”

“That’s not my fault.”

“It never bothered you before.”

“He’s charming when we’re at home,” Georgette said, “But he needs to leave me alone at school. You know how the other girls talk.”

“The other boys too.”

Georgette said nothing to that. I could feel her blush from all the way down stairs.

***

“Don’t eat all the apricots,” a voice said nearby.

I froze.

A small lamp turned on, flooding the basement with a dim, shadowy light. Georgette’s father sat in his recliner, his headphones in his hands. The arm of the record player lifted and swung out of the way for the next record to drop onto the turntable.

I said, “But they are peaches.”

“So they are.”

Rows and rows and shelves and shelves of glass jars full of apricots, peaches, pears, strawberry jam, and pickles lined one wall of the basement.

“I don’t know why no one eats them, but Georgette’s mother can’t let a summer pass without putting up something or other never to see the light of day again.”

I screwed the lid back on the jar of peaches and put it on the side table next to the lamp. Then I climbed up on the workbench and out the basement window onto the damp grass outside.

The lamp went out in the basement, but the light in the kitchen remained on, with two silhouettes on the blinds talking back and forth at each other, the shorter one gesticulating wildly.

I was more careful after that about sneaking into their basement to spend the night on the spare sofa. I learned to wait until the lamp went out and a third silhouette appeared on the blinds before letting myself in.

***

I searched again for the light bulbs, but found my old turntable instead and a lamp that had caught my bedroom curtains on fire because I had removed the shade to wear as a hat for Halloween.

I plugged the lamp in and it instantly flooded the room with a dim and shadowy light, casting the baseballs, footballs, and basketballs on its shade against the walls, against the shelves, against the shelving unit with six dozen jars of pickles, a dozen minus one on each shelf. The minus one accounting for the one jar I eat when putting away the next year’s jars.

I put one of Georgette’s records on to play and ate another pickle.

And as I lay on the basement sofa, dreaming about peaches, I wished I had a pair of headphones to hold in my own hands. 

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Originally published May 2, 2021

Being with Georgette #1

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Being with Georgette #1

I tried not to disturb her when I got out of bed, but Georgette was already awake.

Without turning, she said, “I’m sorry I woke you.”

I said, “I’ve been awake half an hour. I thought I woke you.”

Georgette said nothing.

“Breakfast?” I asked.

“Yes.”

***

An hour later, the tray was still next to her side of the bed, the food untouched.

“Your eggs are cold,” I said.

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Being with Georgette #16

Being with Georgette #16

The red kite rose above the crest of the bluff and quickly flew out of my view from the desk inside the sliding glass door of our hotel room. The kite’s tail remained suspended a moment, jangling its yellow and orange bow ties she had folded out of the stack of napkins from the continental breakfast bar.

My writing stopped of its own accord, and my crutches appeared in my hands, unbidden. However, dragging myself to the door and opening it took my own effort, and was my own achievement.

The air was stagnant, and the ocean but a flattened sheet of glass.

And yet the kite flew higher and higher.

I stopped short when the right crutch knocked chunks of sandstone over the edge of the bluff. Four seconds passed before they crashed against the rocks on the beach below.

She giggled like a school girl. 

Her long, flowing dress fluttered in the same non-existent breeze that lifted the kite.

She had powers beyond my comprehension.

* * *

Her dark, opaque eyes fixed on me with impenetrable mirth.

She spoke, but I heard nothing from that distance.

She spoke again, and I could almost read her lips.

She repeated herself, and I leaned forward. I leaned forward a little too far and tumbled into the blue sky, the sandy beach, blue sky, sandy beach, red kite, and beautiful woman.

I reached for the tail of the distant kite, wondering how long four seconds lasted when falling in a dream.

* * *

I was already sitting up when I awoke with a start. I held her night-time pony tail in my left hand, a finger looped in its yellow and orange bows.

Her dark, opaque eyes fixed on me with impenetrable mirth, and her lips moved silently. Then clearly and distinctly, but still from the depths of sleep, she said, “I know I’ve always been your other Georgette.”

I let go of her pony tail and said, “But I love you.”

“I know,” she said, “That’s what makes it okay.”

* * *

Unlike my original Georgette, my other Georgette only left me once, but that was for good–and there was nothing good about it. 

* * *

In the dark times after her disappearance, that dream of the kite recurred frequently: the only difference being that I always woke to an empty bed. She was no longer there to accuse me, but I did enough of that for myself.

Wherever I am when I find the sun sinking in the sky, I look for a red kite to suddenly draw me tumbling back into her opaque and impenetrable life. But the deepest part of me knows that won’t happen until I fall the full four seconds and wake up with a start in another kind of bed, where I can finally comprehend the full extent of her powers. And her judgment.

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Originally published April 18, 2021

Being with Georgette #15

Being with Georgette #15

Or I stare into the blank mirror, wondering what Georgette took of me this time.

And I gaze into the deep blue cloudless sky, wondering what she left of herself this time.

But I find only the vague reflection of my eyes staring back, wondering from the other side of the deep blue cloudless mirror.

Or I stand at the window, measuring the depth of the snow. Is it April or October? Winter’s belated farewell or early reckoning? The sun stares from the same spot in the same deep blue cloudless sky as the moment she had arrived. Was it October or April?

And I stand at the window, staring into the utterly empty living room full of her carefully (tediously) selected furniture and décor.

But I find only the vague reflection of my eyes staring back, straight into my deep blue cloudless eyes. Wondering from the other side of the utterly empty window. Searching for what she took of me. For what she left of herself.

This time.

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Originally published March 21, 2021